Yesterday was Jack's 5th birthday and I spent it in the hospital with his brother. Joey was admitted Friday night after his respiratory virus made his asthma rear its ugly head. We came home today and after immediately crashing in my own bed, without the sound of the oxygen blowing in my ear, I am trying to get back to normal.

While Joey & I where holed up in the hospital for the weekend snuggling over Toy Story and breathing treatments, Jason pulled through and hosted both of Jack's birthday parties. The party with his friends was Saturday morning followed by our family party in the afternoon. I feel horrible I had to miss his parties, miss his day, but know that getting Joey healthy was what I needed to be doing. Jay was a champ and even assembled a lego car that had no less than 475,000 pieces and took four hours to assemble while a nagging five year old asked if he was done yet because OH MY GOD WHAT IS TAKING SOOO LONG DAD? I told you guys, he really is the best Dad and also holds my vote in the best husband department.

So this is what should have been posted yesterday had I been free:

Dear Jack,
Today you are five and I am in denial that you are not only that old, but that I am old enough to have a five year old.

These past five years have been the best, and most difficult, of my life. You are such an incredible kid and I am not just saying that because you are mine. You are so smart and funny and you can be so kind, when you feel like it of course. I have seen you come around and start treating your brother more like a friend and less like the little pain in the ass he usually is. I love to see you guys play together and I listen to you talk to each other every night from your bunks. I hope you two continue to grow to be friends because you will learn there is nothing better than having the built-in best friend qualities a brother can bring.

I never imagined you would be as weird quirky as you are. You like things to be just a certain way and you are a creature of habit. One change in your routine and you it takes a small miracle to convince you the world is not going to end. There are days that you exhaust me to my core and make me dig deep within myself to try and find any last reserve of patience I might have. You challenge me in ways I have never been pushed and when I am so ready to put you in your bed and escape you, you tell me you love me to Jupiter and back (because it is farther than the moon) and I fall in love with you all over again.

The day you were born was one of the single greatest moments of my life. Since you were coming early the doctors kept telling me you may not breathe and a whole bunch of other scary things. But for whatever reason, I knew in my heart you were going to be perfect and you were. You were such a tiny little turkey. The minute I held your little body and looked at your sweet face I fell in love. I am not sure how, but I love you more each and every day. You made me a Mom and I have never wanted to be anything more in my entire life.

I have so many wishes and dreams for you for the future. In order to keep things in perspective and not get ahead of myself in terms of parenting I am only going to share a few with you now. This next year I hope you continue to learn and to be more confident. Kids like you and you have a ton of friends so you don't need to be so shy! I hope you worry less. I know my worry-wort ways have rubbed off on you and I can see you worry about things more than you should. Please don't worry. I hope you will become more self-sufficient and realize you can do things for yourself. You are five now so you don't need your Mom or Dad to put your pajamas on or to zip your coat. You know how to do these things so I want to see you try harder to do them on your own. I also want to you to pee in the toilet without getting pee all over the entire bathroom. Hold on to that thing and aim for the love of God! I am so tired of cleaning pee off the bathroom floor so I hope age five brings you better aim in the bathroom.
But most of all I hope age five brings you happiness. Loads and loads of love and happiness. Your Dad and I love you with all we have and are so proud that you are ours.

Happy 5th Birthday Turkey!


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*Birthdays come just once a year, Happy Birthday Jack my dear, happy birthday till next year! xoxo*


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